I’m pleased you all enjoyed the last chapter! Thank you so much for the reviews! I’m not sure how often I can update this, but I will update as often as I can.
Now as for In the Beginning, you have 1 or 2 chapters left; I need to wrap up Longshadow’s torture, and Rene Lenier’s capture…and Eric/Sookie’s bonding. You didn’t think I forgot that, did you?
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There’s something about this woman that seems familiar, only she couldn’t put her finger on it. She had a feeling that everything she was saying was true. She was right, she had to let this go. She only wants to be normal so her friends can be more comfortable around her…so they can stop judging her. So danger can detach itself from her and disappear. But that’s not possible is it? Sookie needed to stop living by everyone else’s expectations and live by her own. All she wants is to be happy.
“What is your name?” Sookie asks. The stranger smiles at her, feeling her acceptance and resolve.
“My name is Nina…and I have a proposition for you, Miss Stackhouse…one, that I think may benefit you.”
Sookie moved aside, letting Nina inside. She smiled, walking in through the door, standing in the middle of the foyer. Sookie closed the door and turned to face Nina.
“Let’s go talk into the kitchen.” Sookie says leading the way. Nina looked around and smiled. Her home was very warm and inviting; making her instantly comfortable. Nina remembers all the other homes she had been in. Most were very extravagant and cold, some plain and dull, or warm and inviting. Sookie’s house gave Nina an idea of what kind of person Sookie is.
She walks into the kitchen, sitting down in one of the chairs. “Would you like anything? Something to eat? Something to drink?” Sookie asked politely. Nina nodded her head.
“Yeah, I’ll take some sweet tea, please.” Sookie smiled at her, pleased that she had some manners. Nina nearly rolled her eyes at the expression on her face. For someone who’s all about being polite, she sure doesn’t show it as much as she should. Sookie placed a glass of sweet tea in front of Nina, then sat down across from her.
“So what’s this about a proposition you have for me?” Sookie asked. Nina took a large gulp of her tea.
“How would you like to go on a week long vacation?” Nina replies.
“Yes. How would you like the chance to sit back, relax and process all the choices you made and the events you witnessed? Think about it, when was the last time you actually had time think for yourself?” Sookie looked away, pondering Nina’s inquiry. She sighs to herself. Nina is right, again. She really hasn’t had time to process everything. Any time she’s had a moment to breathe, Bill comes running to her with a problem, or Eric for that matter. There is always something going on that involves vampires and lets not forget the time she spent in fairy. Sookie promises herself she will never go there again or trust Claudine.
Nina’s offer for vacation was tempting, but unfortunately she hasn’t the time or money for such a luxury. “I don’t think I can’t just leave. I have a job, and bills to pay. Sam is already upset with me for leaving without warning.”
“Why do you constantly worry about other people? Why not for once, you put yourself first and screw what everyone else thinks? You owe it to yourself to have this opportunity, dear.”
“What do you suppose I do? They’re my family and friends. I…”
“Family and friends who cast you aside when you’re out helping vampires or saving the world?” Nina gave Sookie an incredulous look, not really believing this fairy’s words. Sookie remained silent, looking at the floor. She didn’t know how to answer that.
“Let me tell you something about friends…they’re loyal; they stick with you no matter what happens. They’re supportive; no matter how much they resent your choices, they follow behind you and back you up when needed. They’re also honest and they encourage you to make your own choices and to learn from them. Lastly, despite the fact you’re different from everyone, they accept you without complaint or reluctance. Look me in the eye, and tell me you have friends with these qualities?” Nina looked at Sookie.
Sookie opened her mouth to quickly come to her friends defense, but stopped. She found she couldn’t say the words. Most of the time, they complain about her association with vampires, when they aren’t doing that, they complain when she reads their minds unintentionally. Her friends were always hesitant to be around her, and never truly understood what she goes through every single day.
“They don’t understand, dear…they never will. They only accept you when you act human, even then, they’re still reluctant to be around you.” Tears pooled into Sookie’s eyes. She thought about all the times she was too tired or emotional not having any energy to keep her shields up and ending up reading their thoughts accidentally. Still they get mad with her and make her feel more ashamed of being what she is.
Silence filled the room. Sookie thought about what Nina said. She was tired of this. Tired of being everyone’s punching bag or doormat. Her friends have known for years she could do things, but they haven’t taken any initiative to understand her better. Why? Because they don’t feel comfortable around her. They still don’t accept her completely…and that’s all she wants is acceptance and to fit in somewhere.
“You know you could do a lot better than this, be better than how everyone sees you, or just be better in all you can be. You ought to use your telepathy to make money and save the world. But no, you stay here in this hovel you call a town, and hold yourself back. You don’t need to continue living here to remember your roots. All you have to do is continue being who you are, and never forget who raised you. Get away from this place and live your life, Sookie. Keep this house as a…sanctuary. It’s secluded, and will be here when you need to wind down.” Nina gave Sookie a soft look, grabbing her hand and squeezing it. Sookie gave her a small smile in return.
“Now lets get back to what we were talking about earlier: your vacation.”
“I don’t think I can accept this vacation without contributing some way to pay for it.” This time, Nina really did roll her eyes.
“Sweetie, this isn’t charity. This a fellow supernatural offering you the chance to get your head screwed on straight…which by the way, is long overdue. Are you so prideful, that you can’t accept help when it is given? I’m a stranger who is being generous and it offends me when you use excuses to reject my offer.” Nina said flatly, folding her arms over her chest.
“What do you suppose I do exactly? I was raised to get by on my own! Plus, you’re a stranger and I barely know you! How do I know you’re not just gonna snatch me up and take me to parts unknown as a prisoner?!” Sookie exclaimed.
“Why did you let me in then? Why would you let me in, assuming I’m here to kidnap you?” Sookie paused. “It’s because your instincts tell you I’m trustworthy. If I were here to take you, I’d have done it as soon as you opened the door. I have my ways of catching telepathic, hybrid fairies, dear.” She leaned back in her chair with a smug look on her face. Sookie’s mouth dropped open in shock.
“I can sense your aura, Miss Stackhouse. You aura tells everything I need to know about you. I also know ever since I set foot on your porch you’ve been trying to read my mind. You can’t because I’m blocking you. I can’t let you know what I have planned for you and Northman.” Nina deliberately bought the Viking up to distract Sookie from what she just revealed.
“Eric Northman. What does he have to do with this?” Sookie asked. Nina’s subject changed worked beautifully.
“He has everything to do with this. It’s time you stop fighting your feelings for him.” Sookie snorted, her eyes widening in shock.
“What feelings? You mean my feelings of dislike, distrust and anger?” Sookie snapped, folding her arms over her chest. Nina chuckles.
“No, I mean your feelings of love, affection and trust. Remember, I can see your aura, Miss Stackhouse.” Nina smirks when Sookie goes silent. “If you can’t trust him and hate him so much, then why did you save him from Russell Edgington?”
“Because…” Sookie replied.
“Don’t bother, you’re going to lie straight to my face anyway.” Sookie snapped her mouth shut, glaring at Nina. “You saved him because you care about him. If what say about how you feel is true, then he still wouldn’t be a vampire. He’d have met the true death.”
“How do you know about all this?” Sookie asked, trying to change the subject. Nina laughed.
“Ah, ah. Don’t try to change the subject, Sookie. You can’t answer me without making up some weak excuse, can you?” Sookie remained silent, looking down into her lap. “I’ll tell you why,” Sookie looked up at her, curious. “It is because you know he’s worth it. Despite the horrible things he has done, he’s worth it. You knew just as well as Godric did, that he has a goodness in him. There’s a lot of love in him to give around. Admit it, you care about him…dare I say, love him?”
“I don’t love him.” Sookie said. Nina nodded her head.
“Okay, but you do have feelings for him that could turn into love. Right?” Sookie wanted to protest, yell and scream in disagreement, but couldn’t. She was honestly tired of fighting her feelings for Eric, that seemed to take more energy out of her then reading the minds of humans for 12 hours straight. Sookie blew out a puff of air, feeling defeated. “Piece of advice, don’t be so quick to reject him. He hasn’t had feelings for someone in a thousand years. He’s a little rusty Sookie, give him time.”
“Now, let’s talk about Bill Compton.” Nina sat still, waiting for explosive of anger from Sookie, but received none. She continued. “You need to let him go and forget about him. He won’t be any help to your well being, emotionally and mentally.”
“My relationship with Bill is none…” Sookie snapped.
“Of my business. Yeah, whatever.” Nina rolled her eyes, waving her hands at Sookie and continued. “Too bad I don’t care. Why do you forgive him for his bullshit? He’s done more damage to you than Eric Northman. He lied to you, cheated on you, fed from you against your will…”
“He was tortured and weakened severely by his psychotic bitch of a maker Lorena! He had no choice!” Nina remained silent giving Sookie a blank stare. She shook her head.
“And what about when Eric was silvered to Russell Edgington while burning in the sun? He was weakened and unconscious, but you still willingly gave him your blood, knowing he might have lost control. But he didn’t lose control, did he?” Sookie jut her jaw in defense and glared at Nina. She smirked back in return.
“I’m sorry you don’t like hearing what I have to say…but you need to hear it. You’ve been stuck in this house, miserable and thinking in circles. You keep wondering when you lost control of your life and the most obvious answer is…”
“Vampires!” Sookie shouted, interrupting her. Nina raised an eyebrow.
“No, Sookie. Bill Compton. It all leads back to him. But it’s not just that, its also because you have a big heart. Many have preyed on your kindness and your naivete. You were so desperate for someone to love you as you are that you ignored your instincts. You knew you couldn’t trust him, yet you did. Just because Compton denies what he is doesn’t make him honorable and humane…it makes him weak. He’s incapable of protecting you properly, Sookie. If he loved you so much he wouldn’t have gave up on looking for you. One man, however, never gave up.” Nina gave her a knowing look.
“Indeed.” a deep, husky voice said. Sookie looked over Nina’s shoulder to see that Eric was leaning against the doorjamb.
“How long have you been standing there?” Sookie asked.
“Long enough.” He replied.
“I thought I told you I’d get back to you in a few days?” Nina said over her shoulder.
“I got impatient.” he said, looking straight at Sookie. “I’d like to talk to Sookie…alone.” Nina noticed the look in Eric’s eyes, nodded her head and suddenly popped out of the house leaving them alone. Eric pushed himself from the doorjamb and sat where Nina was sitting.
“You should listen to her, Sookie. Everything she says is true.” Eric paused, sighing. “She came to me as well, and…set me straight.” he chuckled, then sobered. “I went about this the wrong way. I should not have came on so strong and said that I owned you. This is not why I bought your house from your brother.”
“Then why did you buy my house?” she said through gritted teeth.
“I’m sorry, Sookie. After a year and a half of your disappearance you suddenly turn up out of blue and…I was excited; more so than I care to admit. I missed you terribly. I didn’t buy your house as a tool to lord over your head. I wanted to buy this house as a way to show you that I care for you, that you, Miss Stackhouse, matter to me more than anyone ever has in my thousand years as a vampire.” Eric gave her an intense stare, showing his emotions through his eyes.
She needed to understand.
He was stupid. He should have just told her exactly why he bought the house and explain his feelings for her, instead he went back to his old habit of pretending to not feel anything other than lust or anger. Right after Nina had left him in his office, he thought really hard about this opportunity. He needed this. They both did. It was time for him to clear the air and tell her the truth about everything.
Sookie gave him a skeptical look. But Nina’a words from last night had gave her pause.
Don’t be so quick to reject him. He hasn’t had feelings for someone in a thousand years. He’s a little rusty Sookie, give him time.
Sookie looked at Eric, her eyes softening a little. She wanted to ask him again.
“What do you want from me, Eric?” he noticed that she was warming up to him, but still hesitant.
“I want you. And everything that comes with it.” He paused, taking a deep breath. “You are mine, Sookie. And no, not the way Bill meant it. The way I mean it. You are my friend, my partner, my lover…my everything. That’s what I want from you.” He said as he placed his hands on her cheeks. He eyes telling her what he feels for her.
Sookie was breathless. Her Gran had always told her that eyes were a window to the soul and after looking into Eric’s, she felt like he was being truthful. Her heart wanted to believe him, but her mind kept her from believing it completely.
“If I accept to do this, will you tell me the truth about everything?” Sookie asked. She waited, holding her breath, expecting him to laugh, scoff or walk away.
“Yes. I promise you this, Miss Stackhouse. Whatever question you have for me, I will answer truthfully.”
“What’s the catch?”
“Accept Nina’s proposition, and join me on this…getaway.” Eric gave her a soft look, trying to convey all his feelings into one look. He couldn’t deny he wanted her. This getaway is the perfect opportunity to let his guard down around Sookie and show her who he really is; what many is not able to witness.
“You promise me you’ll tell me everything?” Sookie asked softly.
“I promise.” Eric vowed.
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