Well, knock me over with a feather.
What could be more shocking than to find an invitation to your high school reunion from none other than Eric Northman? Get this, you’re in high school surrounded by hundreds of students and only a couple are noticed because of their beauty and brains. Yep, you guessed it right: Eric Northman and Nora Gainsborough. They were the couple of our grade. They were beautiful, smart and rich. How could you not want to be them or be with them?
Where did that leave my group?
Oh yes, that’s right…on the sidelines in the shadows. We were what you call social outcasts. Nerds, geeks…you name it. And since we didn’t kiss Nora’s ass, we were further from gaining any kind of special attention from the cool kids. I suppose you could say I cared about my appearance, how everyone saw me, but truthfully, all I cared about was surviving high school.
And I did. We did.
When that day came: the last day of school, I bellowed with joy. I was happy when I graduated. It all finally came to an end. The politics, the cool kids, everything. No more bullshit. Although, senior year should have been the best year, but for me it was not. I’ll tell you why. Eric Northman: the bane of my existence. Sadly, it was hard to for me to hate him, because I had a crush on him. He was a jerk most of the time, so I never had the courage to tell him so.
I had a lot of pent up emotions building inside of me, so I wrote them down in my journal. Every single thing I’ve witnessed, everything I have ever thought has all been entered into my journal and yes, that includes my feelings for Eric Northman. That journal was practically my best friend, I had had it for years and not once did I part with it. That is, until Senior year. Sometime in the middle of the school year I had lost it somewhere. I didn’t care how many people saw me that day, I’d lost my shit completely. I acted like a crazy person, running everywhere looking for that journal.
After a while, I’d finally given up on finding that journal and moved on. But, something was odd a month after losing my journal. Eric started treating me differently. Normally, he’d torment me, make fun of me and then be out on his way with his friends to class. Then he stopped altogether, and just plain ignored me. To this day, I still didnt understand what his deal was. He avoided me like the plague and I still don’t know why…
Hey, at least he stopped picking on me!
I shake my head continuing on staring at this invitation as I walk back to the farmhouse. The opportunity to see Eric again scared me. He spent so much time tormenting me, then suddenly he ignores me altogether. I admit, I really wanted to see him again…for what, I have no clue.
I felt nervous suddenly. Did I want to tell him off for making my life a living hell? Did I want to spill my guts and bear my heart to him? Would he remember me? It had sunk into my head that after six years I was deciding to see him again. I can’t believe I’m going to do this.
I hadn’t realized I was in the house when Tara cleared her throat. I looked up at her. “What?”
“Anything for me in mail?” Sookie shook her head, and handed Tara the invitation. Once Tara grabbed it, her eyes widened in disbelief.
“Are you fucking kidding me? You’re not seriously thinking of going to this?” Tara yelled with an incredulous look on her face. Sookie bit her lip, looking guilty. “What the fuck, Sookie! Why would you consider going to this party?”
“It’ll be fun.” was all Sookie said in a calm voice. Tara gave her a look of disbelief.
“Umhmm, you sure this has nothing to do with Eric Northman?” Tara retorted with her hands on her hips. Sookie rolled her eyes, walking past Tara into the kitchen.
“I have no idea what you’re talking about.” She said over her shoulder. Tara scoffs following her into the kitchen.
“You know exactly what I’m talking about. You’re going to this party because Eric is going to be there.” Sookie got a glass out of the cupboard, placing it on the table then going to the fridge to get out a pitcher of sweet tea.
“Notice I’m ignoring you.” Sookie replied, pouring herself a glass of iced tea. Sookie could not admit this to Tara, but knowing her best friend, she was going to be bitching about it until she gave in and changed her mind. Not this time. She had already stopped her from going on dates with Quinn and Alcide, she wasn’t about to win this time. The party was a week away, so Sookie had time to shop for a new dress and ask for vacation time from Merlotte’s. She had plenty of vacation time saved up.
“Why in the hell are you invited anyway? It’s not like Eric noticed you.” Sookie shrugged her shoulders.
“We did graduate in the same class after all. Wouldn’t it make sense for me to be there too?”
“That’s not what I meant! He ignored you most of the time, so I’m surprised he remembered you.”
“Well, somebody remembered me…” Sookie paused, taking a sip of her sweet tea. “Hey, Tara?” Sookie asked, with an innocent expression. Tara eyes widened in realization.
“Oh, fuck no! You are out of your fucking mind if you think I’m gonna drag my ass to that party!” Tara shouted. Sookie have her best friend an innocent look, completed with pouted lips.
“Didn’t you just suggest yesterday that we should do something together this summer vacation? We both have vacation coming up right? Why not spend it in Shreveport for a couple days, then head off to Houston like we planned?” Sookie reasoned. Tara rolled her eyes.
“I am not wasting the first couple days of my vacation at that party! Are you crazy, Sook? I can only see this as nothing but a total disaster! The moment we set foot at that party, we’re going to be humiliated. Why torture ourselves?” Sookie only stared at her friend. It had nothing to do with Eric Northman or being bothered by the usual assholes. Tara didn’t even pay Eric any mind, so what was she afraid of? She was hell bent on avoiding that party. And there was one reason why: Pamela Du Beaufort.
For a couple of years, Pam and Tara had dated in secret due to appearances. Well, it wasn’t a secret to Sookie. It had been obvious to her how close Pam and Tara were; dare she even say they were in love. But, because of Tara’s insecurity and refusal to become exclusive, they had broken up. Sookie could see Tara had broken the cold princess’s heart. Tara had made Sookie swore not to say anything, and much to her displeasure she had went with it.
She could tell Tara wanted to be with her, but was too afraid of being harassed by the student body. And that was that. Pam and Tara never spoke to each other again. Sookie was saddened by this. Her own best friend suffering because she couldn’t bear the thought of anyone thinking she had a weakness.
“Please, Tara? Come with me to this party, I really don’t want to go alone.” Sookie pleaded. Tara folded her arms across her chest, giving Sookie a stern look.
“I”m willing to give you anything you want if you go with me to this party.” Sookie pleaded again. Tara raised an eyebrow and smirked.
“Anything I want?” Tara asked with a mischievous glint in her eye. Sookie blew out a puff of air, knowing she was going to pay for this later.
“Anything you want.”
“Whatever I ask?”
“Yes!” Sookie yelled, annoyed. “What do you want, Tara?” Tara nearly busted out laughing. Since she was going to have to suffer at this party, she was going to drive Sookie crazy. Sookie pouted, noticing the look on Tara’s face. Her beloved best friend was going to draw this out deliberately.
“Alright, Sook. I’ll be your date to the party. But don’t expect me mingle with anyone to bask in our glory days.” Tara said, using her fingers as quotations. Sookie jumped on her best friend giving her a hug.
“Oh, thank you so much Tara! You won’t regret this, I promise you!” Tara rolled her eyes, gently pushing her best friend off of her.
“Yeah, yeah whatever.” Tara replied, walking away. Once Tara had disappeared upstairs, Sookie quietly jumped up and down screaming her excitement in a whisper. She silently pumped her fist in the air three times mouthing yes.
Sookie hoped things were only going to get better from here.
I sat in my office staring at the very thing that has haunted me for years: Sookie’s journal.
Ever since that day 6 years ago, I could not stop thinking about Sookie. Thankfully, my thoughts of Sookie had not distracted me from my dreams of opening up my own bar. It seems that my constant thinking of Sookie has only fueled me to work harder to achieve this level of financial security. I’ve never been more satisfied with how well things have gone…the only thing that was missing was the right woman to share it with. I wasted all my time and energy on the wrong girl.
What was I thinking marrying Nora? I should have realized that we were only meant to last until the end of high school. After that, we both were to go our separate ways and date other people. Sadly, that’s not what happened. Instead of building her own life at a different college, she followed me straight to LSU where I was attending to get my master’s in business.
Nora may have been fun to be with and interesting…but she wasn’t my type or who I wanted for the long haul. I admit, at first it was all about the image and keeping up appearances, but I just wanted to end things. After a while, I got sick of all the attention and the special treatment. I had tried breaking up with her, but she was having none of it. Nora just wouldn’t let me go. The idea that I wanted to see other people pissed Nora off. So I’d been stuck with Nora for the past six years. I never realized how crazily clingy she was.
Finding Sookie’s journal had opened my eyes. It made me realize that I didn’t care much for my image anymore. It was nothing more than a phase, and at that point I was immature. I’ve noticed Sookie so many times, admiring her from afar wanting to go and talk to her. But as soon as my friends saw me I did the worst thing: make fun of her. I humiliated her, and made her life hell in school. But that was only to hide my true feelings. If anyone knew…
It was weird too. The moment I thought of Sookie, Nora conviently popped up out of no where and talk her ass off. After a few minutes, I’d tune her out and steal glances from Sookie. Sookie was truly beautiful. She was sweet, kind and incredibly smart. In a word, she was the queen to my king. The sun to my sky. The yin to my yang. And I wanted her. It surprises me even after six years that I still have feelings for her.
Has she ever thought about me? Did she get married and have children? Eric closed his eyes at that thought. He honestly didn’t want to think about it. Because then he’d be force to think of another man touching his Sookie. Touching her luscious, soft body, driving her insane with want. That’s my job…well soon it will be if everything goes according to plan. I smiled internally, hope filling my heart.
He couldn’t wait for the reunion.
So what do you think of Big Mistakes re-vamped? I know I should be working on my other fics, but my muse decided it wanted to work on this instead. So sorry that you have to wait longer for any other updates from INB, and AFFTP.